Well here we go, the next chapter. I recently graduated from North Central University with my Bachelors in Social Work and Minor in Biblical Studies. 4 years of my life dedicated to what God called me to. Here I am now, Supervisor at my summer job at Six Flags, been there five years. I am job hunting for social work jobs but it is a hard time, and ya'll college graduates know what I'm talking about. I finally got an interview, but not the right job. God uses these times to test us, to see if we really fully rely on Him.
Well now it's rediscovering what being saved means and what God wants me to do. I have not been doing nothing. I've been doing a ministry called Undone, where we do worship nights out in the burbs' of Chicago and we invite all ages to attend. God spoke at those events and it is so cool to see God develop my vision into a ministry that is growing.
I invest in my work relationships. My ministry is wherever I go, I invite people to the outreach from my work. The thing is I know God called me to love people, and to share with people the true love that He showed me. We all have a duty to share and invest where we have a window, and God will direct you. The thing is we want everyone to have the choice and know the true love of God. In the end that is what my life is about.
I have ambition in my career and I am currently applying for jobs, but I know this life is temporary, and so I live for what God might have me do in this moment.
In the moment where I'm living in my childhood home, working in the same summer job, what might God be saying. You aren't done here yet? Well that's not what I expected, ha, I told God send me wherever, but did I really mean that?
Did it mean to deal with the many family issues at home and figure out how to be the love in the midst of chaos. Did it mean risking everything to stand for what is right, even if it means ending a relationship I've held onto for 22 years.
God asks us to do hard things, step out, get out of the comfort zone. I am telling you this summer has been hard because I'm surrounded by people, including myself at points who stay in the comfort zone, but after breaking out of that, I never want to go back.
I don't want to be silent about God, loving Jesus, not a religion, a relationship with a direction called The Bible.
I crave wisdom and seeking it out through every circumstance.
I don't want to settle for what is less but God's call for my life in relationships, friendships, family, jobs, money, everything.
I don't want to let the things of this world control me, but let those go and be led by a God who can handle that in a way that is beneficial.
And here I am now, worshiping God, praising Him for giving me this life to live, because really if I didn't have Him, there's no purpose, I live to die, but He gives me a love. Any human love you have experienced or see in those movies HAS NO comparison to love of God.
Being saved means a lot to me, it's what changed me, as a child, broken, my dad never present in my life, He became my father, with family dysfunction, the church became my family, because we are working to live for God and fight as a family, a team, not living for individualistic societal goals. The thing is He made me into something, I wouldn't be the strong woman of God I am today without Him, leading worship would not be a part of my life, loving to help people, etc. He made me into someone I could never be without Him. I seek to be more and more like my God every day. Not by being legalistic, but by seeking wisdom in the bible, praying and having a everyday relationship with God, being led by the Holy Spirit, when I gave my life to God when I was 4 years old, it took to now being where I am at with Christ.
Jesus died, for me, He gave me a chance to live for real. I cannot waste that. I have a love people crave in our society, but they seek temporary fixes in clubs, in relationships they settle for, in abusive friendships, relationships, in drinking, in drugs, in whatever they might feel like they are better with. The thing is true wisdom from God brings true happiness and true love makes us whole.
That is my walk, I used to want to control things, but I have a God who I love who I give it all for, I give my life, my family, my friends, my relationships, my ministry, my degree, my money, my school.
Now it is time to use my ambition for the Lord and run after it with all I have. As a 22 year old, this is my call, to seek God, listen for His voice, seek wisdom not what I selfishly desire, or my flesh cries out for, it is seeking the best and God's best, and that means disregarding what temptation might come.
So for now, this is my reflection on my life, until next time, we'll see where God takes me next :D
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