As I sit here, about 6 months after I've graduated from college, I am still looking for that job. One that will open up doors, starting off from wherever, but wanting to help people in social work. If there is one thing I am learning now, it is patience. With resume editing, internet job searching, it can get tiring, because it's all with technology, if you get interviews, it is awesome. I have had a few interviews, which has boosted my hope :)
But as it turns out job hunting is a long haul. So here I am, working on the weekends at my summer job, and weeks free. Me and God are best friends. There are not a lot of young people my age that I have met yet being back and not a ton in the church. So my social life is lacking a lot, and after going to a private school where you knew everyone and could go hang out and have coffee with whoever, and have super close tight friends who were in leadership and following after God with everything, it's tough! LOL!
As I sit here, wondering where my next job is, where are my next group of friends, I know I'm supposed to be in Illinois, but sitting in my childhood home is not what I expected. Let alone having a few good friends and kind of being a loner now. But the truth is I am not alone, it's a me and God season. I do have close friends, they are just scattered, but we have cell phones, skype, weddings, traveling, but still, at points its been tough!
So tonight I'm going to UIC in Chicago to hear about the application process and program, I'm hoping this might be it, the next adventure. Truth be told, I have no idea.
As I was reading through devotions this morning Psalm 20:4 came into play, the passage that says God will grant you the desires of your heart. So powerful, and it is true, God will grant me the desire of my heart. When I first went to college, He led me to go to the school, He made it clear, as I went thinking about what I desire to do, I realized it was help people, well that's broad, but He showed me social work. Then that's what I went for, I never changed it, questioned it, I knew it was. So here I am done, with my Bachelors Degree, but it seems what I want to do, requires a Masters Degree. So here we go on this journey tonight, as I gather with other possible people who are looking into this program.
But this has been a big waiting game. Being faithful in the ministries in my church that I lead now, being faithful in the job I have currently, even when every last bit of me dislikes it greatly. Wanting to get a new job, move out, have new roomates, have a new adventure, meet new people, but here I am faithfully waiting. At times it gets boring, and I feel lazy at points, cause I feel like I am doing nothing. But I think all God wants us to do at points, and with everything, is give it all to Him and relying on Him for everything.
Also this summer there are some challenging family issues we dealt with, which resulted in setting restrictive boundaries with a family member in my life. So as I go through that, learning how to trust God and look to Him to be my Father, I still have challenges I'm faced with. Forgiveness, seeking God's wisdom, and trusting in God with everything :)
At this moment in my life, patience, faith, hope, perseverance, and God as my best friend is what I'm relying on. God holds my world in His hand. I have to rest in that blessed assurance.
What is better?
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Trust in the Lord, I wanted to encourage you in that today!
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